But I don't regret. I have seen things that most will never experience.
Don't figure out what you want to be or what you want to do. Start smaller. Start with the simple things.
But I'll wake up, won't I? Or perhaps I already am awake? Living the life of a dream I can't remember.
You let that feeling seep down into your bones and shiver as you your body gets ready for the next time, the next ride, the next drop of happiness.
I remember moments I've had where spats of melancholy have come and gone, nothing as harsh as true sadness, but days, just days, sometimes hours where it's hard to go through the motions, and I empathized with the character.
So I sit here smiling, happy, uncertain almost indefinitely, but happy nonetheless.
Flowing uncertain. Motionless breath exhaled, It begins again. https://laughingsquid.com/opposites-posters/
It's found me, So here I stay, Isolated in my zeitgeist of fear, Just like everyone else.