Feelings

The Zeitgeist of Fear

It finds me when I wake up,

It finds me when I leave my home,

It finds me at work,

It finds me in the food I eat,

It finds me in the things I touch,

It finds me in the people around me,

I find it in myself.

These are the thoughts that have been on my mind recently. This uncomfortable occupation that my mind wanders onto every time I feel silence.

And I blame myself. I’ve oversaturated myself, gorged on a media driven frenzy, the sadness, the anxiety, this zeitgeist of fear we find ourselves in currently.

And it’s not like I’m not occupied.
I keep busy.
I’m still working.
It’s not at the forefront of my day.

But,

I can see it every so often, creeping at the edge of my vision.
A shadow I know is there.

It finds me in the quickening of my pulse,
a pressure,
the tightening in a single breath,

it’s invasive, it’s aggravating, it’s terrifying, it’s exhausting.

I’m exhausted,
Over-peppered with overlapping sentiments:

Buy this,
don’t forget that,
wash your hands,
be grateful,
sit tight,
behave,
do what you want who cares,
if you’re still asking you’re the problem.

It’s like all we can do is wait for something to happen?

I find it when I wake up,

I find it when I leave my home,

I find it at work,

I find it in the food I eat,

I find it in the things I touch,

I find it in the people around me,

It’s found me,

So here I stay,

Isolated in my zeitgeist of fear,

Just like everyone else.

Van Gogh Crows in a Wheatfield.

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