Solidity is such a funny concept. The concept that things are foundationally solid, that change can be difficult to accept, but also to occur. It’s funny how I constantly find myself hyperfocused on a certain part of my life as I’m going through it, yet looking back I think how I was moving through this phase to begin something anew.
And I wonder how hard people hold on to permanence in their lives?
How they can’t accept the new, the scary.
And I don’t see myself separate from this, I constantly question and wonder what I should be doing and if I’m on the “right” path for myself.
But you know Dear, Reader I remind myself that without change we couldn’t be here, being alive is change, and while some changes are good, some bad, and most just middling have neither here nor there of an effect I remember that it was through change that I came into this world and it will be through change that I leave this world so understanding how to accept accountability of the variances in my life is part and parcel with the understanding that we as living breathing beings is to inevitably embrace change.
So why talk about change on this specific day, at this specific time, in a place I’ve found feels familiar ha how ironic! I guess because of how turbulent life has felt recently, not just within my own life but within what I guess have been termed spheres of influence, those bubbles we hold influence over, our reach, our lives.
Zeitgeist I’ve been obsessed with this word since the very first time I was introduced to the idea of a spirit of the times and I often find my mind wandering back to the idea of the time we live in and how events can penetrate our personal bubbles floating abrasively against our opalescent spheres a fine-tuned embrace just enough to intrude but not quite enough to pop, well not yet at least.
Even within my own sphere in my daily life as a teacher, I am reminded of how not only my own life but those around me are shaped by not just what I teach but the words I use, the actions and motions I go through, heck even the clothes and facial features I use daily all subconsciously alter the lives of those around me.
Students of mine even noticed how much I say the word “Okay” in my everyday life and decided to take a tally throughout my lessons for the day, and as much as I found it incredibly amusing to be told of it at the end of the day I admit it never occurred to me how repetitive our mannerisms can be in our daily lives and I feel that wind blowing turbulence and change my bubble flying along the airstreams hoping to land.
So what do I want to say, what’s the point of these meanderings this moments of though interspersed you have been delightfully been floating along reading with me the over the shoulder eyes of curiosity and a sense of aplomb looking into my life you courageous Reader.
Well, I guess what I want to unburden myself with is to forgive myself for being nervous as I contemplate changing the trajectory of my work life into something new but also familiar I mean haven’t I just been regaling you the simple truth we all should remind ourselves personified in this quote by Ratouille,
“You can’t change nature, son!” “Change is nature, dad, the part we can influence. And it all starts when we decide.”
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